Loneliness

Today I am lonely

I do not know what to say 

I do not know what to do 

I do not know what I am doing with my life 

I am undergoing an inexplicable patch

Which is full of despair, regret, remembrance and memory 

Which has arisen out of a devastating betrayal 

I do not know what went wrong and what was wrong 

I feel pulled down, cheated, looted and psychologically raped 

Things and life keep getting beautiful and complicated as we grow up 

A piece of the latter this time has made me stop in life 

It is getting difficult to move ahead 

I fail to understand what exactly to ponder upon and why 

I fail to decide where to begin thinking from 

This is an unfamiliar phase 

Sometimes I feel this is deservance 

Sometimes I feel this is a process to something astonishing 

I am just so numb from inside

From body, mind, heart and every side

I seriously need help 

But I do not know whom to ask it from 

I feel most comfortable in just sleeping, bathing, eating and working now 

Life is becoming an unanswered question 

Why would someone behave like this 

I want my answers and my peace of mind 

Forgive me God for which I am undergoing this 

Help me to come back to myself 

I am sorry.